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of a lifelong relationship, that keeps me clean and provides for my needs and many of my desires. no not **Santa GOD,** although i once believed my HIGHER POWER to be exactly that, today i am of the opinion that although a HIGHER POWER can and will care for me, it is certainly up to me to be awake enough to grasp those opportunities as they come barrelling down the pike. one thing i did not do, is barrel down the pike to Southern Colorado. looking at the weather and the road conditions, i probably could have made it, albeit a bit later than i planned, but safe and sound with a minimum of craziness. perhaps i could have had a similar experience on my return trip home. i decided instead, based on the look out my window, that for my sanity it was better to just postpone this trip a couple of weeks. i have no regrets about “wimping out.” as a result i GOT to sleep in, get my errands run, write this little ditty and maybe get a nap in. none of which was part of the plan for this day.
thinking about my surrender and how it might morph into acceptance, often makes my head hurt. what i want, i really, really want and strive to get, no matter what. what i need, i get whether or not i think i want it. i fought that fact of life for the longest time, as i believed that i was the one in control of my life and all that revolved me at the epicenter. as i stay clean and move into deeper levels of surrender and acceptance, i GET the freedom to be healthier, happier and yes even a bit more wealthier. i may have a huge side gig coming in today, which will certainly help me out and i am now willing to ask for a settlement offer from the very slow paying insurance company of the driver who totaled my car. so i guess, and more than likely am correct, that it is time to put this little ditty to bed and commit to taking my time as i chill the rest of the afternoon, in front of Red Zone.

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