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i need may seem to come from a plethora of sources, but when is all said and done, i see that it is being awake enough to listen for and exercise the opportunities that are presented to me, daily, through the POWER that fuels my recovery. unlike many of my peers, i NEED all of those words to explain how i see my relationship with that POWER, as there is no adequate shorthand that will suffice. i can tap dance around the issue all that i care to, but in the long run, i have to surrender to and accept the fact that how is see my spiritual path is no in strong alignment with most of my peers. many might call me an agnostic, an atheist or an apostate, but i simply am who i am and do not judge them for their choices when it comes to seeking an understanding of the nature of the POWERs that fuel their recovery.
with all of that behind me, i can move into what i heard this morning, which was a whole lot of nothing. it was weird that what popped off the stack was just a feeling of serenity and a certainty that, just for right now, nothing is fVcked. Lauren Boebert may win her election, which sucks, but what does not is that she has yet to be declared a winner, so there is still hope that the voters in her district see her for what she is, and not what she attempts to be. all of my angst over this election cycle, was certainly something i cheer today, NOT! 😜 i see today that by doing my part, voting and promoting ideas in a public forum was what i could do. i wholeheartedly did all of that and if i believed “thoughts and prayers” would help change the outcome, i would have certainly been on my knees twenty-four hours a day, beseeching GOD to make these election results look like i wished them to be. 🤣
i am okay this morning accepting and knowing who and what i am. the “'who” part may still be in flux, but the “what” is constant and unchanging -- i am an addict -- . my only defense against addiction, is the power i receive on a daily basis from the POWER that fuels my recovery and i accept that power and notion, as well. everything else, is just gravy, as i am clean today, i get to choose whether or not i will stay clean and when i make that choice i have access to all the power i need to stay clean, to live and to thrive, just for today.

∞ DT ∞