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here i finally found others who have been in the same predicament, with the same needs, and who have found a manner of living that works for them. well once again i am running way out of my routine, and once again, i feel weird enough to write about it. perhaps, i am learning that my routine, is not my routine and i NEED to go with the flow. or perhaps i am learning that it just is, and instead of trying to force myself back into the routine i once had, there might actually be freedom in learning to live outside my routine. that is an interesting thought, and one that goes to the heart of my current step work as a matter of fact. interesting that less than week after completing my FIRST STEP, i am already facing changes in how i see the world and how i am living from day to day. i wonder if this has always been the case, and i was just to much wrapped up in everything else to notice way back when i hesitantly took that very first FIRST STEP.
i know that back then, changes happened and became part of my life, then after six months i finally realized that i had changed, after they were well entrenched. i also know that one of the major gifts of my last set of steps, is the ability to be present. well actually i probably always had that ability, what the last set of steps allowed me to do, was actually start to use that skill and start to practice using that skill and adopt a manner of living that relied on practicing that skill, which brings me to where i am today, once again grateful for the changes that allow me to live clean in active recovery this morning, right here and right now.
so as i did not accomplish all that i wanted to yesterday afternoon, i do believe that i will hit the showers and get cracking again. it is after all, another day and another opportunity to be more than i was yesterday.

∞ DT ∞