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sound familiar?? well for that is the recipe for death. or at least that has been my experience up to this point in this whole recovery shindig. what the reading screamed at me this morning is that if i do not remember what i was like when i came to this fellowship i will revert to that man. not that i have to dwell on the past and remember my life in all its gory details, no what i have to be is cognizant of the creeping return of the values that separate me from the rest of my peers in the fellowship that gave me this new life. i have a very poor memory when it comes to myself and it seems an extremely long one when it comes to others and certain events in my life, like the first time i really got high. however the topic of this morning’s reading was not remembering my past, it is about joining in the bond of recovery and finding all the experience, strength and hope i need to recover in the fellowship that gave me this new life. my recipe for death, are attitudes and behaviors that separate me from my fellow recovering addicts. as that separation grows, so does my alienation from society and then i am once again on the road towards using. my peers and those with whom i share my life with like the man i am becoming, although at certain stages of this development process i have been more than little intolerable. overall this journey has been a positive experience for me and one that i am willing to continue. i may not have accumulated all the material gifts in the world, but what i have received emotionally and spiritually are beyond value. Ii know those gifts will only keep coming if i chose to remain part of this fellowship. and to remain part of this fellowship, i must once again join in the bond of recovery and do the next right thing! which is move on with my day and see what wonders the world has in store for me today.

∞ DT ∞