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for me this means that i can fully embrace my own personal range of emotions. today, however i am feeling way off balance, and even after an excellent quiet time this morning, i have not quite achieved the balance that i am seeking. perhaps it is the result of my unmet expectations, perhaps it is about the sinus thing i have going on that is driving me nuts, or perhaps it is just a spiritual growth spurt that i am going through. whatever it is, i am doing my best to cope and as this day goes on, i have a feeling, that my feelings will play a HUGE role in how i interact with the world around me. not that they do not play that role every single day, it just feels like today, i8 am sort of a raw irritated nerve, that needs a pinch of spiritual numbing to keep from reacting in a manner that i will end up regretting.
i guess that is also part of emotional balance, now that i stop and think about it, recognizing that i am out of sorts and being present for it. there was a day, when i this sort of stuff was going on, that i just did not care, or even worse i was clueless as to my emotional state and just went through life like a hurricane decimating the landscape around me. at least i am present for this state today, and if i take a minute to pause, instead of reacting automatically, i could quite possibly find a way through today without major damage.
so where do i go from here? well work is a good idea, along with personal hygiene as well. form there just being in the here and now, doing what is in front of me, and being the best i can be seems like the order of the day. my focus is going to be present for what is going on, inside and outside of me. with that in mind, i think i will jump in the shower and get moving.

∞ DT ∞