โ i will find joy in witnessing โ
Posted: Wed, Jan 25, 2012 07:44:39 AM
the recovery of other addicts.
confession time. when i first read this entry all those days ago, i NEVER would have believed that i would still be reading this after so many days clean. had self-will ruled when the sword was lifted, sitting on a bus to Denver, typing a blog, would not have been my reality, much less finding joy in watching others recover. i am grateful that when that event occurred, i was deep enough in the recovery process, that i GET to live today and have the life i have. there is a catch, however, being part of this process, means there is pain in watching someone in the grips of relapse, just waiting for the moment when using feels like a good idea. i currently know and care for an few addicts who are in that sad state, BUT until they invite me to help, i am powerless top do anything but be a spectator.
there is one addict i need to call out today:
confession time. when i first read this entry all those days ago, i NEVER would have believed that i would still be reading this after so many days clean. had self-will ruled when the sword was lifted, sitting on a bus to Denver, typing a blog, would not have been my reality, much less finding joy in watching others recover. i am grateful that when that event occurred, i was deep enough in the recovery process, that i GET to live today and have the life i have. there is a catch, however, being part of this process, means there is pain in watching someone in the grips of relapse, just waiting for the moment when using feels like a good idea. i currently know and care for an few addicts who are in that sad state, BUT until they invite me to help, i am powerless top do anything but be a spectator.
there is one addict i need to call out today:
Reece, my friend and sponsee,
11 years of one day at a times
AWESOME JOB!
∞ DT ∞