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having the ability to face reality was not one of the gifts i expected to receive when i came to the program. in fact, i was quite comfortable living in the fog of my unreality. i could accept or dismiss events and things that did not or could not fit into my world view. as a result i had a very limited horizon and perspective.
the GIFT of seeing reality and learning how to deal with it on a daily basis is one of the gifts i treasure most in my life today. i may still want to withdraw into my little narrow world of fantasy, but the things i have to daily to stay clean and continue to grow, preclude me from being caught in that world for very long. i still want to ignore my pain and suffering and pretend that everything in my little slice of the world is just fine but my friends do not allow me to isolate behind my rose-tinted glasses for very long. they remind gently and sometimes not so gently that life is life and i need to use the tools in front of me and face it. i am no longer allowed the luxury of wallowing in resentments and self-pity if i want to remain clean. and you know, life is better with my feet on the ground and my eyes level with those with whom i share my life with.
∞ DT ∞