โ looking at today โ
Posted: Tue, May 31, 2005 05:35:39 AM
now that i am back home and starting to get back into the swing of things, i realize that allowing myself the freedom to be myself, and be where i happen to be was what the reading was talking about. today has come and i have to come back and face the realities of my day, today.
i am actually in a very good spot this morning although there seems to be a few messes that need to be dealt with here and now. i will not go into those in this small musing, but they are immediate concerns that i will face and take care of as my day goes on.
among the rest of what is going on in my head is a sense of gratitude for being allowed to participate in an event that may change how i look at the world of service and my part in it. i also got the privilege of attending a meeting far from home. the addicts in Nashville took care of me, providing an alternative to sitting in my hotel room and isolating. i did something new, i asked for a ride and got one, i got to spend some time fellowshipping with addicts who dis not know who i was and yet accepted me as a brother and one of their peers.
and for me that experience was the most exciting part of my trip. i was accepted and loved be men that did not who i was, and they allowed me the time to share my experience, strength and hope with them, providing just one more piece of evidence against the argument that i have nothing to offer anyone.
i am clean today, i have planned my day to do those things that i believe i can accomplish and will start doing what i need to, to do it. i am happy and grateful to be a part of this fellowship today.
∞ DT ∞