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in my life, while living a program of active recovery is, at times, quite a daunting task. i know i am more than capable of manufacturing a thousand reasons why i cannot do this or that, the reality is however, doing this or that is highly dependent on me living my program of active recovery, PERIOD! across the course of my recovery i have been less that diligent about how i practice my program and it is true that how i live an active program of recovery theses days varies greatly from what that looked like twenty-five years ago, ten years ago, hell, even 3 years ago. part of that is the pandemic lock-down and before one gets into whether or not it was necessary to change the batteries on all the birds, the fact is, that it happened, i was banned from attending meetings in person and had to make accommodations. what i learned was that i am flexible and that at this moment in time i am more than okay with one regular meeting a week, one service meeting a week and meeting with the men i sponsor on a semi-regular basis.
what i do on a daily basis, had to change when i could not get out to be with my peers and friends and that meant stepping up my daily maintenance. the changes manifest over the past decade made that possible and today, i feel stronger than before, in my recovery program that is. i know that if i continue to do what i have been doing, i will be okay and when things start getting weird, as in me, i know where to go to get the relief form the misery i can cause myself. that is not that case today and now i really need to get on my work computer and start pounding out the hits. it is a great day to be clean, on this side of the lawn and recovering from a 10K race that kicked my butt.

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