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to understand, life the universe and everything, at least on some days. today, i may not understand but i am grateful for what i can grasp. my daily reminder to keep it as simple as i can, is something that was reinforced this morning in my source material. trying to keep things simple, i have attempted to let myself off the hook for a Dr visit, for the injury i sustained in my trip and fall yesterday. i was so sure it would relieve itself in a day, that i did not even mention it to my spouse. this morning, as it is a little better than it was last night, i have decided that perhaps this is the minute to take some action and find some possible relief in the medical profession. after my dermatology appointment, i will head over to urgent care for some x-rays and an exam. i am letting go of my expectations for the outcome of that visit, but i do have some hope about my prognosis.
moving into my day at work my months log project was completed in a day after i had to go back to the drawing board. it sucked that i missed the ship on that particular task, trying to be tricky and making a one-size fits all solution. had i considered that the changes in the end product would also mean changes in the places that were consuming my solution from the get go, i would have been done a long time ago. so it goes, when i try and complicate stuff to look clever or smarter, i end up making things harder on myself which brings on the whole “i am an idiot” chorus. today, i have shut that off, as i see i learned a whole lot about how things work, in the background. i do admit that like my shoulder, my success yesterday also brought on the scourge of self-disparagement and today, i refuse to go down that path. today, i will drop the pretenses and move forward into work with a new outlook and come what may from the medical world today, i will be okay, just for today.

∞ DT ∞