โ one of the basic elements of this new pattern of living, โ
Posted: Fri, Sep 6, 2013 08:14:10 AM
is regular meeting attendance. okay time to get real here, i have a few days clean, and quite honestly i do not have the time nor the desire to attend a meeting every single day. the truth is, as i my life improves, thanks to an active program of recovery, my life has become fuller, and that steals time from doing the basics. yes the catch-22 here is, that as i go to meetings regularly and learn how to practice a program of active recovery, i seem to have less time to go to meetings. when my meeting attendance falls off the edge, i get spiritually unfit and all of a sudden i am back where i started, with plenty of time, resentments and desire to get a program of active recovery in place.
for me, the way out of this conundrum, is to hit what is the optimal number of meetings in any given period. that number changes as my life changes, but seems to stay right around 3 a week. this week, however…
yes, there it is, the BIG BUT! yes it is easy for me to rationalize(read lie to myself) why some weeks i can slide by on what is the optimum minimal amount of meetings for me. well…
yes, there is is, caught in that catch-22 of making an excuse or three about how busy i am and remembering why i do what it is that i do to maintain my recovery.
so anyhow, not a whole lot going on, recovery-wise for me today, however life-wise, well that is an entirely different story, perhaps with this extra day off, i can feel better about heading south for a week and getting way off the grid or not. what i do know is, that today, i am grateful to have this life, that today i have the opportunity to reflect on the meeting i participated in last night and know that i may not have changed any minds, but i certainly planted a seed of something, that like me, this is the path to a new manner of living beyond my wildest dreams. it is a great day to be walking this path and i am happy to do so willingly, at least just for today.
for me, the way out of this conundrum, is to hit what is the optimal number of meetings in any given period. that number changes as my life changes, but seems to stay right around 3 a week. this week, however…
yes, there it is, the BIG BUT! yes it is easy for me to rationalize(read lie to myself) why some weeks i can slide by on what is the optimum minimal amount of meetings for me. well…
yes, there is is, caught in that catch-22 of making an excuse or three about how busy i am and remembering why i do what it is that i do to maintain my recovery.
so anyhow, not a whole lot going on, recovery-wise for me today, however life-wise, well that is an entirely different story, perhaps with this extra day off, i can feel better about heading south for a week and getting way off the grid or not. what i do know is, that today, i am grateful to have this life, that today i have the opportunity to reflect on the meeting i participated in last night and know that i may not have changed any minds, but i certainly planted a seed of something, that like me, this is the path to a new manner of living beyond my wildest dreams. it is a great day to be walking this path and i am happy to do so willingly, at least just for today.
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