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almost sounds like a commercial for dietary aids to make sure stuff is flowing or not flowing whatever the case may be.
anyhow, regular meeting attendance has been a part of my regimen since starting this journey. although i do not attend on a daily basis i have found that four a week is what i need to stay connected and focused. any less and i seem to forget that i am an addict, and any more creates havoc in the rest of my life, as i lack the time that the others in my life desire. so i walk a fine line between domestic bliss and internal serenity. i sometimes wish that i did not NEED to attend any meetings after all i hear is the same old clichés, gossip, dramas and problems recycled over and over again. you know different day same old sh!t. there is of course nothing new for me to hear as i have been around long enough to have heard it all.
and that of course is what the problem is. i may be hearing the same old stuff, but i am not listening to what is being shared. even though the problems shared seem similar, they are affecting someone else. even though the solution is often loaded with the slogans from the literature, perhaps the person sharing has a new twist on it that i, in my infinite wisdom, have failed to consider. then of course there is the domestic bliss issue. how long would i really expect to maintain domestic bliss if i stopped attending meetings altogether? that is an experiment that i loathe to try. i have seen the results of others trying it out and did not like what i saw.
so back to square one, in order to continue getting what i have been getting, i NEED to do the things i have been doing and try to learn to balance the rest in the time remaining to me.
-- DT --