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Sat, Jul 2, 2005 07:30:30 AM
μ comparing μ
posted: Sat, Jul 2, 2005 07:30:30 AM
once more i am thinking about comparing what i am doing with others, thanks to the JFT reading today.
i had the privilege of participating in a panel last night and in one of the clients, i saw myself. he was puffed-up with self-importance, crying out for attention, but his questions went straight to me heart. although i may have more days clean than he does, he reminded me of me. so after a bit of reflection, contemplation and meditation i can feel grateful this morning that i no longer need quite so much attention from my peers, that i have a few days clean under my belt, and that i have the desire to move forward down the path that i have chosen. have i overcome my fear about letting go? i do not think so. i have accepted that i do not have all the answers? i am can at least tolerate that fact today. can i look for different questions? well maybe just for today.
yes i am still a sick pup and yes i still have trouble applying all of these spiritual principles in all of my affairs but i am just a frail human suffering from the disease of addiction. my disease does not manifest quite as overtly as his, but it is still in operation coloring my behaviors, perceptions and attitudes. so looking around i can see today that there is what i need right here, right now.
∞ DT ∞
i had the privilege of participating in a panel last night and in one of the clients, i saw myself. he was puffed-up with self-importance, crying out for attention, but his questions went straight to me heart. although i may have more days clean than he does, he reminded me of me. so after a bit of reflection, contemplation and meditation i can feel grateful this morning that i no longer need quite so much attention from my peers, that i have a few days clean under my belt, and that i have the desire to move forward down the path that i have chosen. have i overcome my fear about letting go? i do not think so. i have accepted that i do not have all the answers? i am can at least tolerate that fact today. can i look for different questions? well maybe just for today.
yes i am still a sick pup and yes i still have trouble applying all of these spiritual principles in all of my affairs but i am just a frail human suffering from the disease of addiction. my disease does not manifest quite as overtly as his, but it is still in operation coloring my behaviors, perceptions and attitudes. so looking around i can see today that there is what i need right here, right now.
∞ DT ∞
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
2) All things under heaven sprang from It as existing (and named);
that existence sprang from It as non-existent (and not named).