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to be myself, is certainly a gift that flows from the fellowship that has given me the first clues of who i really am. i am however, fairly certain that it is tiring to hear of my ongoing identity crisis, so i will say that it is still an issue for me, it is being resolved and i am not nearly as “angsty” about it anymore. spending a day at the top of Colorado, pushing my body to meet the challenges of a climb, i have a clearer understanding of who i am and what i need to accomplish over the course of the next four days. what i heard this morning was not about the chaos of my life, who i might be or taking back my power, i know weird, is it not? no what i heard was just being and allowing the day to progress as it will. what that may mean, i do not know. i do know that next on my “task” list is to get out and move a bit.
did you really think that would be all i have to say? seriously, one should know a bit better than that, that is if one is paying attention. one of the things i “feel” i may need to do, is get to a live and in-person meeting today. that feels as if it will be a juggling act, as i am also on-call. even though i spent the day “out and about,” yesterday and in the company of one of my peers, i still feel i need to connect with my peeps. i have become less introverted as i became more assured that i am on the right path, but i will never be described as a “social butterfly” or extroverted. i also am pretty certain that i am far too comfortable, never leaving my house, even though i complain about how sick and tired i was, having to stay home, when the pandemic was in full swing. the truth about where i am, lies somewhere between those two extremes, and today, as i have thew perfect excuse to stay in, i want to go out, truly ironic🙻 what i think i just may do, is stop, breathe and get ready to do my “tour de neighborhood.” today, i am going to do a bit of letting go and see where that takes me, as i have plenty of stuff on my plate and time to make it happen.

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