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here i have come to the reading where i could post yet another screed about how my peers misuse pronouns for whatever reasons they choose to do so. one of them, whom i previously spoke to privately, said **because that is the manner in which our literature is written,** and because they believed it was **inclusive.** at least i had one explanation and after a conversation with them, they saw my point of view, about using **you** and **we** instead of me and one. today however, i have come to an accommodation with that as a fact of life in the rooms. when my peers share they just may use the wrong pronouns or are just prone to giving advice.
i am quite certain that neither my living experiences in active addiction, or my recovery path to this point in my life, line-up precisely with any of my peers. i have NEVER heard my “story” told by another addict, BUT i have heard bits in pieces in the experiences shared by my peers. mostly, when i shut off the internal conversation and listen, where my experience lines up with theirs, is when they speak of their feelings, their crazy notions, and the lies they tell themselves to keep on doing, whatever they are doing. i am well-versed in the latter and some of the time, the lies i tell really have little or no effect on what i am truly trying to deny, thanks to those very same peers.
the hour grows late and the day continues to get hotter, so i think i will wrap this up and head on out on my “morning after” walk. another fourteener is in the books and i am paying the prices for 3500 feet in 3 and a half miles. i may be old, but i am not dead, and although that is a bit of a whine, i volunteered to make that climb and spend some time, on the top of the world.

∞ DT ∞