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my thoughts and the nature of my relationships throughout my life have been morphing into a new shape lately. i do not know if this reshaping is the result of my experiences over the past eleven months, the footwork i have been doing in regards to my program of recovery or just a random event. the reading this morning suggests that aligning my life to the spiritual principles that have been given to me in recovery will reshape my thoughts and my concept of THE POWER THAT KEEPS ME CLEAN AND PROVIDES FOR ALL MY NEEDS. it is not the first time that i have been told that i can achieve better thinking through better behavior, nor is it the first time i have thought about the shape of my thoughts. i do know that everything i know and feel is subject to constant revision. being open to the revision process was not something that came to me naturally. when i came to recovery i was very rigid. my belief system was set in stone in all regards including what i believed about the nature of the divine, life, the universe and myself. i was more than slightly resistant to any suggestions that i may wish to allow that rigidity to melt into a bit of flexibility, after all i had some native intelligence and prided myself on being a logical, rational person. i still believe that i am a intelligent, rational, logical person but i have come to the conclusion that what i know may or may not be valid and that i need to be a bit open-minded about adding new material to the body of knowledge i already possess and allow my beliefs and behaviors to be altered by this new information. many of my beliefs are no longer grounded in the cause and effect outlook that i so carefully cultivated before coming to a spiritual program. now i seek evidence and evaluate myself in accordance with the body of evidence i have collected. that evaluation over the course of my recovery has reshaped the way i view myself and my place in the world. and that revised vision has allowed for changes in me, more profound that i would have ever believed possible. this old dog has been taught a few new tricks, and that is a good thing!
∞ DT ∞