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for some reason, i am having trouble responding to the reading this morning. i am at a loss for words and am struggling to come up with exactly how i feel about this.
when i examine my behavior and actions it seems that i treat others with greater tolerance than i treat myself. i expect myself to be some kind of "shining" example of spiritual principles in action. The people in my life i allow the freedom of being human and for the most part am forgiving and tolerant of their human frailities. i understand that they have good and bad days and struggle from time to time with how to do life on a daily basis. i do not allow myself the freedom to be human and do not expect tolerance and forgiveness from them, after all my behaviors are so much more heinous.
--- HAH -- what a joke ----
i am no more or less human than my peers and deserve the same measure of kindness i give them. the lie that i seem to belivev is that i should havwe more patience, answers, love, and recovery than i do. this goes directly to the spiritual principles of humility and self-acceptence to qoute popeye

I am what I am and that's all i am

and you know what today, right now in this moment i can be frogiving and tolerant of me. i can accept myself as i happen to be at this moment and let the rest of the process continue to work as it has for the brief time i have been at.

-- DT --