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with my obligations, remembering that i am, after all, only human and can get easily overwhelmed by taking on far too much. one may not be able to accuse me of that these days, as i have simplified my life by letting go of a shit ton of stuff i used to believe i “had” to do. across the course of my recovery, i seemed to be of the opinion that if i did not step up and do something it would not get done, or if it did, it would not get done correctly. pretending that i was somehow “indispensable” led to all sorts of cognitive dissonance, which forced me, finally to wake up and smell the fVcking coffee. as a result, i am quite happy with the service i provide to my peers and my fellowship these days, and i feel good about the level of commitment i can show to myself. after a day where i have accomplished all that started out to do, i feel it is time to just chill and be okay with doing little to nothing,
what is on my mind, however, before i move on with my day, is the way i am coming to loathe one of the regular attendees at my home group. i find his “brand” of recovery, far to “touchy-feelie” and his attempt to be “inclusive and politically correct” seems more than a bit forced. i want to tell him to stop trying to be what you are not and say what you mean, without getting up on your high horse. i am certainly woke and without a doubt nowhere close to being on the “right” but i do not where that like some sort of badge of honor, as it truly is no one else's bidness but mine. i know the issue is mine and not his, so with that i will post this little ditty, forgive him from trampling on my oh so precious feelings and move on. it is a great day to be clean, even though it certainly has been a full one.

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