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it is no secret, at least to those who peek at this little ditty on any regular basis, that the seed i used for is an apt statement of my life since the 15th of October. even today i am doing work for a very unhappy client and it looks like i might actually get a reprieve, possibly as early as Monday. i told my boss's boss what i was feeling and what extreme measures i was willing to take to get out of the place i am in. it is true that i might have found a different way of expressing myself, but after my emotional dump and truth-telling, he has a much better understanding of where i am and may actually implement a plan to ameliorate the need for me to be in front of my computer for sixteen hours a day.the result for me, was that for the first night in weeks, i slept deeply and soundly for over eight hours and when i got up from my 11TH STEP this morning, i was actually feeling a tad bit of HOPE. oh yeah, i fired a shot across the bow of one of the most disrespectful coworkers and threw him and his team under the bus, big time. i wonder how it feels for him to have the shoe on the other foot now. that e-mail got no response form him, but my boss's boss was on the chain and chimed in, asking what needed to be done.
today, as sad as it may seem, i am going to do a bit of development work, to polish up my skills, in case i get another job opportunity, as this my current position no longer brings anything but doom and gloom to my already less than cheery disposition. right here and right now, i see myself on the crux of a new chapter in my life and the tiny little bump in any direction may start a process that changes things so much that i no longer recognize who and where i am. today i can see a bit brighter future as the frustration and angst i have been feeling has been released. i also am in the new opportunity pipeline. as i reminded one of the men i sponsor, i can give those bastards as much power as i choose to do so, after all they do not feel, what i am feeling, at least about how my life “feels” today. yes the circumstances of my life, at least lately, sucks. i may not get on a rosy, posy high horse and say that i am “okay” with those elements of my daily life are just wonderful and append on a quick: “at least i did not use,” just to drive home a point.
so the readings and announcements are done at my home group, i got my 250 steps for this hour, have completed my task for work, so i guess it is time to put this baby to bed and pay attention. oh yeah, it is a good day to be clean.

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