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Tue, Nov 24, 2020 07:22:41 AM
🤔 peace of mind 🤯
posted: Tue, Nov 24, 2020 07:22:41 AM
and gratefully recovering are two phrases that do not trip merrily off my tongue on a daily basis. one might say, that i am too cynical to see the **good** aspects of the life i have, or that i take for granted all that i have been given and have the DESIRE to get even more. whatever the reason, it is true that i need to be reminded that i went through two thirds of my life living in a world of unmet expectations and gnawing DESIRE. the fact that i can sit here this morning, in the comfort of a well-heated home and write about what was and what my life has become, in and of itself far exceeds any expectations i had, way back when.
i could whine about the weather preventing me from taking to the streets, but to what end. what i can foresee for this day, is i will just take care of that later this morning. i have a few days off, coming up and i am planning a mini-feast for my parents on Thanksgiving. living life in plague times, means making one or more sacrifices to protect those i love. one thing they gave up was a family gathering, but i am unwilling for them to have to give up having a holiday meal. it may be a total fiasco, but i am going to make the attempt anyhow. what once was a “free meal” for a week, has become a gift i can give to them, at least this year.
the odd part of how i am feeling today, is that even with tall the turmoil that is being caused by number 45 as he pretends there is a path to him remaining in power after 1/20/2021 and the lack of any return to normalcy because of the selfish anti-maskers, i do have a “bit of peace of mind.” my life, as tossed as it may be, is not all that bad. my one hour daily commute has been transformed into the time i can work-out and take the inches of fat off my mid-section. as many hours as i have been working over the past few weeks, are coming to an end, and i will be able to work on improving my skills, so that i can obtain another job, when the correct opportunity comes my way. and after the holiday, i may even venture out to a “live” meeting, once again, to reconnect with my peeps, as the on-line nooner is fading into obscurity. things in the external world may not be all bright and shiny, but they may actually be changing for the better. i have a recovery program and can even say i am grateful that program provides me some peace of mind, just for today.
i could whine about the weather preventing me from taking to the streets, but to what end. what i can foresee for this day, is i will just take care of that later this morning. i have a few days off, coming up and i am planning a mini-feast for my parents on Thanksgiving. living life in plague times, means making one or more sacrifices to protect those i love. one thing they gave up was a family gathering, but i am unwilling for them to have to give up having a holiday meal. it may be a total fiasco, but i am going to make the attempt anyhow. what once was a “free meal” for a week, has become a gift i can give to them, at least this year.
the odd part of how i am feeling today, is that even with tall the turmoil that is being caused by number 45 as he pretends there is a path to him remaining in power after 1/20/2021 and the lack of any return to normalcy because of the selfish anti-maskers, i do have a “bit of peace of mind.” my life, as tossed as it may be, is not all that bad. my one hour daily commute has been transformed into the time i can work-out and take the inches of fat off my mid-section. as many hours as i have been working over the past few weeks, are coming to an end, and i will be able to work on improving my skills, so that i can obtain another job, when the correct opportunity comes my way. and after the holiday, i may even venture out to a “live” meeting, once again, to reconnect with my peeps, as the on-line nooner is fading into obscurity. things in the external world may not be all bright and shiny, but they may actually be changing for the better. i have a recovery program and can even say i am grateful that program provides me some peace of mind, just for today.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
2) The tree which fills the arms grew from the tiniest sprout; the
tower of nine storeys rose from a (small) heap of earth; the journey
of a thousand li commenced with a single step.