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counters self-centeredness is not a tough issue to accept. i know that i can be inhospitable, more often than not. it is not that i do not know how to be welcoming, it is just that being a socially retarded makes me see what i need to be doing about three minutes too late. all HOPE is not lost, as i am becoming lighter in a social sense, as i care less and less about what others think of me. in fact, the more i find myself to be acceptable, exactly as i am, the more socially acceptable i seem to become. that leads to me taking each and every opportunity to be welcoming and to welcome those who happen to show up at the door.
i have been engaged in an interesting experiment, ever since i decide that i would never understand the motive of my peer who walked off with my property. because of my strong and over the top reaction to their actions, i decided i needed a gauge of spiritual fitness that was measurable and repeatable. my experiment consists of allowing myself to give the middle finger salute, once a day. each time i feel angry about an institution i happen to be driving past or someone driving in an unacceptable manner or i find myself being disrespected, i ask myself does this event rise to the occasion ti use my one shot? ironically, time and again, it does not and i get through the day with my one “bird” intact and a bit more serene than i was yesterday.
as i walk through the rest of this day, i will remember that ever=n though i am working less than a full day and football will be on this afternoon, i can and will be okay with being myself. after all, i slept in, worked out, shoveled the walk and the driveway and got to smoke a cigar as i pounded out some hits. i made it through yesterday without any drama or trauma and did not rise to the occasion to tell one of my MAGAt family members how freaking wrong they were about just about everything. my brother may not consider 280 to be a number that is unhealthy, but i am glad my cholesterol numbers are far below 200 these days and will never allow myself to have that number creep up to my genetic “value.” just for today, i respect myself far too much to be that “sick” again.

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