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is paying off, no matter how i slice, dice or julienne it. it is true that i am on warning at work and will need to step up my game, by being more focused on details, faster to figure out the solution and more communicative of my needs to have my work evaluated. that clock has yet to start ticking so i have a minute before i will need to spring for the next thirty days. spiritually i am ready for the next step and perhaps today will provide me the opportunity to move into an assignment from my sponsor. emotionally, i am coming to terms with the fact that if someone is willing to lie down and accept defeat, there is absolutely nothing i can do about it. there may be a whole lot wrong with the world around me today and i can whine, wail and gnash my teeth over it all, but to what end? i cannot ignore what is happening, but i can add my own creative twist to be a part of the solution, no matter how small. knowing that i am a creature of bias and prejudice and actively seeking out the behaviors that arise from those depths, does make the world a little less harsh.
moving off in another direction, what i heard today, on my first paid day off, was that i can be okay with whatever happens to come down the pike today. i am strong in the practice of my daily recovery routine. that practice is the rock upon which my life has been based and if things go south for me, i know that i have the ways and means to move forward. instead of being a worry wart about it, my plan is to take action, as i only need to be competent in one language in the next thirty days and demonstrate that by being able to jump into the code anywhere and figure out what is wrong.
while the weather holds, i think i will dress out and get some miles in. i do have plans for today and whether or not they come to fruition, i cannot predict. it is up to me to take responsibility for my physical self, my spiritual self, my emotional self and my intellectual self. gratefully i have a program of recovery that allows me to do just that, just for today.

∞ DT ∞