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an active program of recovery, every day. that does not seem all that difficult to do, after all, since getting clean and becoming a bonafide member of the fellowship that keeps me clean, i have become habituated to doing certain “recovery” tasks, on a daily basis. that gives me a baseline of recovery activities and i am quite certain has allowed me to walk the path of recovery for so many “JFTs.” even so, i am also quite sure i can fall victim to the same thinking patterns that kept me in active addiction for so long. and of course, i can be a lazy slob and not take care of myself as well. one of the benefits from staying connected to the fellowship., is i “get to” see others who have done this gig much longer than me, and actually have something i desire, case in point:

Brenda E.,
3 DECADES (30 years) clean!
WOW! CONGRATS MY FRIEND.

this week has been one for the books. not only has every day been “different” from my normal routine, even that routine has been thrown way out of whack. the good news is that i accepted that i would have to change a few things up, but the one thing i did not change, is those activities that are part of my recovery routine. i altered my “altered” life around what i need to do on a daily basis to stay clean. no one ever said life was going to be easy, and lately that has been the case. as i move into a place of forgiveness: forgiving my parents because as they age they require more of my attention, forgiving my siblings because they had to be prodded to pick up the slack and most importantly forgiving myself for getting mad at my parents because they need my attention. id there was ever a time in my recovery when i was going ti=o use,. lately would have certainly been the one i could easily justify. if i were one to look for miracles, i could certainly see one in the way i am moving forward from where i was and looking to a place where i could be, instead of whining about how terrible my life is, because of the all the changes going on. does not mean i do not want to wail and moan, just means that i see no point in doing so, just for today.

∞ DT ∞