Blog entry for:

to accept. four words that are coming back, time and again, to haunt me, after a year of tectonic change in my life. i could go through the litany of change, but to what end, i have been living and writing about it in real-rime. this morning, what i seem to be hearing is that life does go on, even when i cannot seem to buy a win at Fantasy Football and am ready to return to the drawing board after getting hammered two weeks in a row. that is a great metaphor for me life, i have a decent team and the last thing i need to do is panic after two weeks. i have a decent life and although i am not quite at home with my new job, i am getting there and i have my 30 day review in a few days, so after my screw-up on Friday, i am concerned about what i will hear. i know that just like my fantasy team, being concerned is one thing, starting to panic, is yet another.
sitting here, trying to figure out how to salvage my work from last week and move on to my next task, which seems to be playing with filters in my inbox, instead of writing this. coming back on task, i know that i will be okay, i will ask for help and see if my work can be salvaged, if not, i know where it is and a quick trip through copy and paste will take care of my stuff. if only my life were that easy to get back on track. i know a call to my sponse is way overdue. i know accepting that i am far from perfect, even though i am trying to come off that way, is also a bit overdue. i also know that the changes being manifest in my life are part of the process of getting better fit, spiritually, emotionally and physically, and the time has come to do a very quick and light workout, before getting my nose back to the grindstone. seeking serenity through a bit of acceptance feels as if it the next right thing to do.

∞ DT ∞