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spiritual path will sustain my recovery journey, despite my many years of attempting to deny that fact, i still stayed clean, by some remarkable power outside of myself. it still is a mystery to me, how i managed to stay clean on a borrowed HIGHER POWER and my only conclusion is since that was a concatenation of all of the HIGHER POWER concepts of my peers, it was sufficient to keep me here long enough to finally let go and embrace my own. although the journey of coming to believe in a spiritual path of my own, took the first fifteen years of my recovery, it was what i needed to be secure in allowing the POWER that fuels my recovery, to care for my will and my life. i have to say, that in times like these, having to depend on that borrowed HIGHER POWER, would have been a true test of my FAITH.
the odd part of this reading this morning, was when i sat, i could not remember the “seed” i took to start the process off. no matter how hard i tired, honesty and spirituality would not come to me, so i went for the standby of my own understanding. i guess that was where this addict needed to go, as when i got up to start my day, i felt secure in my FAITH and ready to meet the challenges this day may bring. i can see that my unemployment claim has been “adjudicated” and i am waiting to see if i have been denied. i have a technical interview tomorrow, that my recruiters have been trying to feed me the answers to, so following their lead, i will be finishing up my REACT course and doing a deep dive into the practice exercises in my on-line skills-building site. before any of that can happen, however, it is time to suit up and hit the frigid streets for a bit of exercise. week two of enforced walking only, has commenced and i am willing to stay at this level, just for today.

∞ DT ∞