๐ป the ** bigger picture ** ๐ผ
Posted: Fri, May 13, 2022 04:07:08 PM
is not exactly what i was considering writing about, earlier this morning, before i did a quick tour of this part of Casper, WY. after having to wait for the Army to clear the breakfast bar and figuring out how to get on the internet, that changed. so much of my frustration in daily living comes from expecting something and then getting hammered by one obstacle or another. today was no different. what is different, HOWEVER, is that i let all of that slide off my back and continued on my merry way. i GET to write this, this morning, just as i GET to drive to Chinook, MT to be with my family. my expectations of this day are quite low, get my 14,000 steps in, drive the remaining eight or nine hours to my family's ancestral home and be good to myself as i cross the open range. the “big picture?” well that is to allow myself the freedom to be okay, stop when i need to and not attempt to break any land speed records as i drive across this open range. so i think i will fire up a cigar, gas up my car and head North, as it seems to be the next right thing to do.
WHAT A DAY!
after a day of fighting the wind and then horizontal rain, i finally made it. i guess when i said i would have to accept what may come, i did not realize it would be two big honking cigars, five hundred miles and two meals before i could post this. i am not so sure what i was thinking about this morning, but now i know i feel grateful that i was willing and able to make this journey. i could complain about the terrible internet at the Days Inn and the lack of concern the management showed, but why bother, if i wanted excuses there are plenty of folks around home who manufacture excuse for not doing what they ought to. i know that for me the bigger picture is i GET to be here for my family and i be present for my Uncles and aunts as they send one more of their generation, off to what comes next. for me, this part of my family is a gift of recovery and i want to enjoy it for as long as i possibly am able. it is true that there may be some petty differences between me and them, but that really is not relevant, as i can forget and forgive. there is no reason for me to carry that weight, when it truly is in the past. it is a good day to be clean and in Chinook Montana.
WHAT A DAY!
after a day of fighting the wind and then horizontal rain, i finally made it. i guess when i said i would have to accept what may come, i did not realize it would be two big honking cigars, five hundred miles and two meals before i could post this. i am not so sure what i was thinking about this morning, but now i know i feel grateful that i was willing and able to make this journey. i could complain about the terrible internet at the Days Inn and the lack of concern the management showed, but why bother, if i wanted excuses there are plenty of folks around home who manufacture excuse for not doing what they ought to. i know that for me the bigger picture is i GET to be here for my family and i be present for my Uncles and aunts as they send one more of their generation, off to what comes next. for me, this part of my family is a gift of recovery and i want to enjoy it for as long as i possibly am able. it is true that there may be some petty differences between me and them, but that really is not relevant, as i can forget and forgive. there is no reason for me to carry that weight, when it truly is in the past. it is a good day to be clean and in Chinook Montana.
∞ DT ∞