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my emotions, all i have to do is let go and FEEL them, no matter what they happen to be. i have heard it said and often repeated that i have never seen anyone die because of a feeling, that has been my experience, with one caveat, i have seen others harm themselves, relapse and commit suicide, as a reaction to their emotions, so i guess it is apt to say that surviving emotions and my reaction to them, is a task for just about any day. this morning as i sit safely ensconced in the office, i am still feeling the adrenaline of the panic brake i experienced when the cars ahead of me on the highway. stopped for a hallucination. i guess i need not judge those drivers, but i can say this, as soon as i could, i got out from behind them and left them in the dust. not sure what was going on with them, but i know i took my eyes off the road in order to “skip” a song on my play list, and that was certainly my bad! 🥴
yesterday, i went to another repair shop to get my oil changed and experienced the worst service in my life. on their second day of bidness, they were still having issues and Murphy took over. i can say that the human element of their service was outstanding and they did give me a giant discount for my less than stellar experience. i will let it go and perhaps if the stars align again to favor a second try, i will see if i want to take my car there for service. considering all that i did not have to do, yesterday afternoon, it did not turn out too badly. my life went on and i “got to” drive my car to work this morning.
moving on, i am certainly in a dangerous place in both my fantasy football leagues, on a long win streak and at the top of the standings. in the past, when i arrived in this spot, i got obsessed with “playing around” with my line-ups and players. the end result was after all my obsession and football moves, i ended up tanking my teams. i did need to make a move or two to cover my players on “bye week” and am starting to second guess my choices. i now have four players, playing on Thursday night and am feeling more than a bit twitchy about making those choices. i guess i can survive that feeling, let go until i get home this evening and take a calm and considered look at whether or not i want to roll with those changes or mess around with them. right here and right now, i need some coffee and i need to get busy doing what they pay me to do. it is a great day to be clean and all in all, not a bad one to allow this day to happen as it will. i am certainly powerless over what emotions i have, but i retain the power to respond, rather than react to them, just for today.

∞ DT ∞