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open to learning, is the least thing i can do. i have come to know many things in the course of living and especially on my journey through recovery. once upon a time, i believed i knew everything that i needed to know and there was nothing left for me to learn. these day, there are two facts that stick out

• i am now and always will be an addict
• and that there is a shit-ton of stuff, i have yet to learn!

the ways and means that knowledge may come to me is certainly unpredictable and most of the time a mystery. it therefore behooves me, to keep my eyes and ears open for those “lessons” as they come down the pike on a daily basis. life in recovery, at least for me, means that IF i stay awake and am present, i will get at least one nugget of knowledge that i needed to learn, on a daily basis. true, that is a very low bar to climb over, however i am not one of those who is a one and done kind of person, never have been and probably never will be.
the hike yesterday afternoon? well it was certainly a learning experience. i am far from 100% and am paying the price in pain and stiffness today. i also learned that my beanie lamp is far from bright enough to guide me way, as i had more than one misplaced footfall on my way down. i get to go to physical therapy and she will probably tell that what i am feeling is a good thing, as it means that my leg got the workout it needed and will be stronger than it was the day before, after it heals. i am all good with that and will allow myself the FREEDOM to be okay with a bit of discomfort after completing my first hike in eight weeks. i still have six more weeks to Kilimanjaro, so now i know where my focus needs to be over the next few weeks, weight-bearing rather than low impact cardio. that does not mean going out and walking six miles tomorrow, but maybe four miles on Saturday morning, if it is not snowing.
it is a good day to be clean and to know that yes, i can do what i desire; i can be open to learning a new trick or two and if i get out on a ledge, i have friends, and peers that are there to help me back to safety. all this and a whole lot more are part of my corpus of knowledge, but it is far from complete and it is up to me to open my mind to add to it what i know, just for today/

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