Some memes

for myself, caring for others is a theme that seems to be coming up a whole lot more than makes me comfortable lately. i am still waiting to **feel** how to write my iron fist in a velvet glove letter and have been distracted by doing the footwork for my trek next January. i also have to some footwork about finding a temporary new home for my home group, today. it looks like i have far too much on my plate to even think about caring for myself or anyone else, so i will need to put that on “autopilot,” for right now. WHOOOPS there i go again, i am making an attempt to rationalize and justify my lack of concern for myself and anyone else because i am “too busy.” the fact of the matter is, caring for and taking care of myself is not a function of how much or how little i have to accomplish in any given day.
it is very odd that i do not have a shit-ton of stuff on my mind, as this is certainly a topic about which i can generally write encyclopedia length dissertations. what i think is going on, is not the distractions in my life, although i might want to defer to them, but the fact that i finds myself taking care of myself on a daily basis spiritually, physically and emotionally as a matter of routine. the end result of that care, is that i auto-magically care for others, with little forethought or planning. the balance i feel in my life today, is directly related to how well i perform the bits and pieces of living a program of active recovery. not to sound all braggy and preachy, but for this addict, for the first time in my life, i feel well enough to be comfortable in my own skin, attend to my own needs and have enough of me left over to care for those with whom i am close. so on that note, i think i will head out to the Rec Center as i am not a fan of working out in the mist, just for today.

∞ DT ∞