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in unity, or how i learned to not **have to be right** all the time. this morning after a week of being on injured reserve, i am itching to get out and about so and get some **miles** under my belt. i know, however, my leg is nowhere close to allowing that to happen, without exasperating the injury i already have, and so i whine, i twist, i turn and i finally let go. certainly FIRST STEP stuff, which is appropriate as i have two men who call me their sponsor, looking for my direction on their FIRST STEP work. what i read and heard this morning had nothing to do with the FIRST Step but it did remind me of an issue that keeps coming around me, specifically: is being correct and pushing that point of view something that should win out of fellowship unity?
that take me back to a few years ago, when i was correct and ended-up deferring to the judgement of my peers, in a very stacked group conscience. in the long run, because of those who held the purse strings, this notion went down in flames and the self-seeker has nailed themself upon the cross of martyrdom and continues to live there today. i have been there and certainly done that, BUT, i realized that my ideas, no matter how great they may sound to me, are ALWAYS subject to revision and approval by the process of group conscience. it took me more than a very long minute to see that whether or not my ideas about how to carry the message are implemented, they have no bearing on my worth and do not define me. i may be an “idea guy” but i am not welded to that as part of my identity.
with that in mind, i think it is time to post this little exercise on the internet, grab a caffeinated beverage and head on over to enjoy some football and cigars. i got off to a strong start in fantasy football on Thursday night, so now it is time for me to let go and just enjoy the afternoon. it is a great day to be clean.

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