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and the FIRST STEP, go together in my mind, sort of like peanut butter and jelly. each is tasty and can stand on its own merits, but the combination create a classic taste sensation that i grew up loving and still enjoy to this day. i certainly can persevere without working or living a first step, and i can live a first step without the effort to persevere. when i pair them together, however, i certainly get better quicker and am better prepared to face the storms that are created by raw chaos of living in the real world. it is odd that on a day when i usually am considering anything but the FIRST STEP, i quickly go back to how i start my day with an homage to STEP ONE, before swinging my legs off the bed and landing on my feet. i know that i am powerless over addiction and all sorts of odds and sods. i also know that by making that admission, i set myself up for a day that i can live in active recovery and get what is before me, done. living in the here and now does not mean i do not plan for my future, in fact in thirty-one days i leave for an adventure of a life time, but if i want to see the summit, i have to keep training to be fit enough and prepared enough to climb for eight days straight. i also know that my past does not define me, even though the sum total of my experiences have created the person i am becoming. by living that first step, i get to allow the changes that are part of growing spiritually to be manifest within me.
coming back to today, as i worked out this morning, my mind kept coming back to my friend who is currently out and about. i truly want him to succeed, but each and every day i hear him back-sliding into the same mind-set that has kept him living the life of a victim. i want to believe that i have HOPE he can and will succeed art being on the streets and it is not just wishful thinking. his past does not bode well for him staying clean and not getting any new charges, but what do i know, maybe the switch has finally flipped and he is “well” enough to move forward into life. anyhow, enough of musing about what may be and time to get myself and the dawg out into the open air. it is a goods day to be clean and a better day to let go of what is not and embrace the what is, just for today.

∞ DT ∞