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this morning, i discovered that i am still on East Africa time, as i could not sleep past 3:00 AM and gave up trying at 4 AM. as a result, i have gone through my mail, my e-mails, made the appointments i needed to make, got everything charged up and finished washing Kilimanjaro out of my stuff. i am not as sore as yesterday and actually was capable of doing a few of my PT exercises, that actually helped loosen up my “unhealthy” leg. all is well as i start this week of dealing with my Mom's affairs. i still have the motivation to protect her assets, as i commence this process from those who believe they are “entitled” to something they have not earned.
as i sat this morning and thought about growth, mine and that of my friends and peers, i can see that for me, anyhow, it comes in spurts rather than a constant rate. living in FAITH, means that i believe that if i continue to work a program of recovery, i will continue to grow, spiritually. these days,especially after the challenging time i have had over the past two weeks, feels as if i am in one of those spurts right now. i have to herd the cats i call my brothers and sisters into doing the next right thing for my niece, even though i have yet to come to a place where i know what that may be. i have to deal with the fallout from the Mom's death in a manner that is both respectful and properly assertive. i have to get my physical self back into the shape i need to start training to run the Bolder Boulder/ most importantly, i have to get back to the place where my spiritual practice becomes automatic once again. all of this while allowing those around me to be there best they can be and deal with what they need to deal with. quite a long laundry list of stuff to do and yet, i keep feeling that everything is going to be alright, if i just allow myself to be in the moment with who and what i am.
with all of that down in bits and bytes, it is time to get in the shower, take care of my injured toes and get ready to face the day ahead. just for today, i can be okay with not knowing and just going with the flow, growing as much as i can with an open mind and a willingness to be a bit more.

∞ DT ∞