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have plenty of opinions about what works and does not! this afternoon i keep trying to get away from one of my traveling companions and each and every time i move, she just “happens” to end up in the same place i am. seriously, she is working my last nerve. she seems to think, no i will not go there projecting my thoughts on what she does or does not think. i can say the only person i know who seems less aware of what is going on around them, was me. way back when i was oblivious to what others felt and more times than not misinterpreted their actions. today, i am a tad more aware of the world around me and how my actions or lack thereof are affecting those around me. i would move once again, but i m sure that i would still not get the result i desire. 🤬
on this last day of the year, back in civilization, i can be okay with not forcing my will on anyone,even if they are in my opinion, odious and draining. dealing with the so-called normal ones if tougher for me, than dealing with my peers in the rooms. i know what they are all about, even if my opinions and their's do not coincide. i no longer feel the need to “correct” them of disabuse of the fallacious notions. i have come to the place in my recovery and my life that allows me the freedom to be myself and allow others to be themselves, at least nine times out of ten, and that tenth time, well let me just say, that there is a step for that and i practice it each and every night.
i have to admit, that although yesterday i was looking for a way out of the remote and isolated resort i was staying in, today, it makes me sad i had to leave. go figure, never satisfied with what i got and always looking for something different. 🤪 sitting on the street porch this steamy afternoon in Panamÿ City i am grateful that i am not at a mile high above sea level, that i can win a fantasy football league by 0.02 points, and that i can allow myself to allow others to just be who they are, just for today.

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