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the possibility of such intimacy causes me more fear than almost any other situation in life. well after missing a full day, it is tough to get back into the swing. so it was a wonderful weekend with family up in the mountains. in a perfect world the only thing that could have made it better, would have been if my nephew’s took the championship instead of runner-up. however, his team played with heart through the heat and blistering sun yesterday and i am not in the least bit ashamed of either the outcome nor of the poise and sportsmanship they displayed. so enough of other people, what about me?
well, i am sunburned to a crisp, the consequences of not paying attention to all of my needs. my workout was slow this morning, and i am having trouble getting up the desire to work. nothing major, just hangover from a fun and full weekend. thinking about how the barriers i create to prevent people from forming relationships with me does not have the same sort of punch as it once did. do not get me wrong, it is still part of my repertoire of behaviors that are not among my favorites, however, across time and as i progress, this fear consumes me less and less. part of it is, i am more comfortable with who and what i am. as that part of me grows, the fear of discovery of who i am lessens and i live more openly and with less barriers to forming healthy and full relationships.
i do need to get moving, so off to the races and if i stumble across something else about this topic as the day progresses i will be sure and come back and write about it.

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