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...of what it takes to build lasting friendships. over time, though, i learned that friendships require work. the choice therefore is do i want to put my efforts in that direction. honestly, i am of the type of person who would rather have ten deep friendships rather than 100 shallow friendships. because of this it seems many see me as cold and hard, and for me, i would not have it any other way. when i decide to make a commitment to any sort of relationship it is with my entire being, anything less is not worth my time, so i have very passionate relationships on this level. if i perceive that someone merely wants to be an acquaintance, which is what most of the people i rerun into seem to want, i also can form that relationship. i have learned to be honest and upfront, as a result the other member in these types of relationships do not get all the warmth and caring i give to my friends, so all of a sudden i am not a warm and fuzzy sort of guy. and i say so be it!
i have come to the place in my life where i accept who i am, most of the time, at face value. i have little care of what others think or say about me, as they have no clue what it is like to live in my shoes. i respect those whom i respect, and for me, respect is part of friendship. very few of the people who chose acquaintanceship with me have my respect, and unfortunately i am certain that comes out all over the place. it has been my experience, that being dishonest and shallow seems the only way to win over great numbers of friends, at least for me. i am an intense and strong personality and i understand that today. friendship is a relationship i treasure, and while i can never have enough friends, i am not going to sell out my core values or who i am to accumulate more friends. like everything else in life there are trade-offs and some i am willing to participate in and others i choose to leave behind. so off to the doctor’s office for my pre-op physical.

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