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i arrived without the slightest understanding of what it takes to build lasting friendships. okay i am two hundred miles west of home, and hours after i usually do this little exercise, all of that is irrelevant, what i had time to think about today, while transversing the mountains was how much i have grown in this respect. okay, before i come off like some FNG, let me say, that is has been a long strange trip and the destination of today, in this space time, was not without its perils. i still have very few genuine friends, that is a function of what my definition of a REAL and GENUINE friend really is, and not because my sociopathic tendencies are still running rampant. i probably have written about what i expect of my friends, and i certainly have written about what i expect of myself in that regards, so rehashing that is not a good use of the few minutes i have before service takes over. what i was struck with as i took in the stark beauty of the drive this morning, is how many people really care about me, respect me, and <GASP> even want me to be a part of their life. while there is a part of me that longs for even greater acceptance by the world in general and more popularity, the part of me that believes in recovery is more concerned about being who i am, and not some sort of people=pleasing freak, that changes roles and masks to suit the social environment. i believe that those who number me among their friends respect that and are quite content with the man they see before them.
so the journey to becoming the man i am, has produced friendships and all sorts of other relationships and today i have FAITH that journey will continue to produce the same amazing results. so it is time to prepare for my service work, it is a beautiful day out here on the Western Slope and i will do my best to appreciate the beauty and the gifts that i receive the rest of today.

∞ DT ∞