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when i got here i did not have but 2 friends left in the world and was not friends with anyone in my family. i was more than a little put off by the onrush of friendship i was offered in the program and was emotionally incapable of handling friends and friendship. so like the reading stated this morning i alienated myself because everyone was so different than me. after all, what did they know about what i was going through. my first sponsor made a very strong suggestion that i allow some people other than him get to know me and maybe build a friendship or two along the way. i because i was so desperate not to use, i actually grudgingly followed his suggestion.
over time i have found many friends in the program, in fact all of my closest friends are also walking this path.
i forget that friendship and the ability to make and keep friends are a gift of this program, i just take it for granted that this is the way it has always been for me. this morning’s reading reminded that the friendships i have today are a GIFT of the program and not something that i am entitled to or arise out of my own will.
-- DT --