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Posted: Wed, Nov 16, 2022 09:05:37 AM
special opportunity to have friendships and relationships beyond my wildest dreams, is what has happened on my recovery journey. this morning as i drove to work on a different day and found my new desk, i wondered about what this day would bring. well for one, someone had poached my desk, as he was confused about the new regime and had not got the communication about what was up. i hated telling him to get lost, but i followed the rules and did what i was supposed to do.
moving into the theme of alone no more, what i “heard” this morning as i sat, was the notion that now that i have been freed from the pall that defined me for so long, i get to choose who is and is not my friend. i no longer feel the need to put more work than the other party into a relationship and as a result, a few people have dropped out of my life. as sad as that may be, i see it as growth, on my part. i wonder if they even notice, as i have not had them reach out to me, at all. that is as it is and i need tom post this little ditty and get back all that i lost in my botched merge from the repo this morning. i am not ready to start over, but i do need to see what i can find. it is a good day to be part of something larger.
moving into the theme of alone no more, what i “heard” this morning as i sat, was the notion that now that i have been freed from the pall that defined me for so long, i get to choose who is and is not my friend. i no longer feel the need to put more work than the other party into a relationship and as a result, a few people have dropped out of my life. as sad as that may be, i see it as growth, on my part. i wonder if they even notice, as i have not had them reach out to me, at all. that is as it is and i need tom post this little ditty and get back all that i lost in my botched merge from the repo this morning. i am not ready to start over, but i do need to see what i can find. it is a good day to be part of something larger.
∞ DT ∞