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too late to start over! i know my source material was speaking of starting my connection to the fellowship over, after some time away. as i have never really been away, i read it a bit differently. i see my life after coming out from under the lie, as starting over, after twenty-five years clean. seeing myself in a whole new light, has been a jarring experience, to say the least. as i come to terms with possible being more than a social retard and actually someone who likes to be around folks i have yet to meet, i see more than one opportunity in my near future to test that theory. my cousin's dinner last night, showed me that i could make small talk and conversation with others, actually opening up to them, listening to what they are saying and asking the sort of questions that come naturally to those who are socially adept. time will tell.
i need to go get some steps before heading down to the wedding this afternoon. it is a good day to be clean and a better day to allow myself to be who i really am, just for today.

∞ DT ∞