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i carry it everywhere and share it freely,leaving the results to a POWER greater than myself. i heard a bunch of stuff this morning when i read this, and as a result, where to go, is a bit of a mystery right now. for one, i heard do not give up on anyone, no matter how intractable they may seem, there is always HOPE that an addict can recover. although it seemed to be speaking about r=those who chronically relapses, i could apply it to a whole lot more. but the obvious first. i have a sponsee who just relapsed after a year clean, it was three months longer than his last period of clean time, and i have reached the point, that i do not know what to do. i am certain that it will come to me, the next time i i get to actually speak or write to him, but right now i am in a quandary. i know what not to do, that is to fire him and walk away. i also know that beating him over the head, or becoming some sort of fellowship dad or authority figure is also not the direction to take with him. i also know that as long as he expresses a modicum of willingness, there is HOPE, so on that note i think i will move on.
no what really struck me, was the an entirely different situation that i have been coming to terms with in my life, that is those addicts who have long periods of clean time, but have put their recovery process on hold, for whatever reason. honestly, how they work their program is between them and the POWER that keeps them clean, and for me to judge the state of their program based on their less than acceptable behaviors, is beyond what i really need to be doing. the FAITH that i have that those who come and go will perhaps someday get this, needs to apply here. even though that class of recovering addicts is not going out the door, i have to allow myself the HOPE, that they will actually listen to what is being said and remove the defensive walls that they have built. sure the messenger that they hear may not be respected nor even liked, but as an addict with a bit of clean time, i NEED to listen to all of those voices, and my HOPE is so will the others that i speak of. so where do i go from hear? well into my busy day to get some responsibilities taken care of, have a bit of fun, and savor this slice of life to the best of my ability. it is after all, another GOOD day to be in active recovery.

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