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the Twelfth Step asks me to apply principles in all my affairs; the Twelfth Tradition suggests i apply them to my relations with everyone.
so it was a wonderful weekend down at convention in the Springs and i really gotmy annual dose of celebration of my recovery. it would be nice to say, that it was not marred by a few sad experiences. only one applies to me, and to the reading today, and i just need to vent.
while this is quite a principle to practice, sometimes i wish that when i say i have nor decided something, that everyone would take me at my word. i understand that everyone needs to plan the future, and i do plan out what i am going to do, after all, sitting at home waiting for things to be decided for me, is not part of what i want to be today. it is true that i am undecided about the future of my service efforts, as i am trying to get a handle on my relationship with the fellowship at all levels of service. yes it is true, that i have never been here before, and most importantly it is true that i was pissed off and ready to jump down someone’s throat. instead i walked away, quietly petulant and pouting trying to figure out how i could get my point across.
well, me decision today, based on what i believe is to let it go, accept people for who they are, and continue to move forward with the process that i have started -- namely allowing myself to feel what is the correct course of action of me.
right now that means back to work and then a meeting, and let go of my anger and say a quick prayer to the POWER that is the source of my recovery for the ability to practice principles before personalities.

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