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it is for every day, for everyone… in all areas of my life.
so the object of so much of my inner turmoil was present last night, and i was able to be warm, cordial and offer that person a hug. when i hugged them, i sincerely meant it, and felt absolutely no angst at all. that was surprising to me, for it shows that i am doing better than i am feeling, which is always hard for me to believe.
of course what does any of this have to do with putting principles before my personality? well for one, i know exactly where i stand now, and in the past, being disrespected and not taken seriously by anyone that i had to interact with, would be cause for rebellion. this morning i feel no rebellion, no angst, no anxiety, and no twisted internal conflict, just a certainty that i am on the right path. that path means i treat that person as warmly and as cordially as i can, i am powerless over who and what they are, but i no longer need to worry about seeking their approval, in fact right now i could care less weather or not they approve of me, their opinions have become irrelevant, just as they should have always been. i am ready now to face a day of lots of people, some step work with a sponsee and some fun. and of course doing my best to put the spiritual principles of the program i choose to live before my personality.

∞ DT ∞