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to my conscience, now that i have one, is certainly something i can focus on today and ironically it was what i was thinking about before i even sat, this morning. it is not as if i have been running around being a dick-head asshole, nor have i been living in self-obsession, but that does not mean that i cannot “listen” a bit better. here is where i put in the HUGR caveat that this is a program of “progress not perfection,” a great rationalization and a trap i can fall into with little or no effort on my part. the trick here, at least for me, is to see that coming down the pike and do what i can to change my momentum. of course that is always the “trick.”
as i started my morning, i realized that i was still not prepared to take my on-line assessment and asked for a few more days. i should have waited a few more days before applying, but what is the worst thing that can happen? they can say no and i am stuck taking that assessment on Thursday afternoon. if that is the case, i can watch football and enjoy a cigar on Sunday, instead of working towards my new deadline on Monday. either way, the next few days have to be squeezing out the hits at work and spending all my free time working towards my goal of doing my best for my audition. maybe, it will be something i already have under my belt such as binary trees, queues, binary search or stacks. one can never tell, but i am not going to fall into the trap of fantasy thinking and not preparing the best that i can.
right here and right now? my conscience is reminding me that i have work to do and am getting paid very well to do it. it is also tweaking me about preparing for another position when i still have a current employer. time to this dive into what is up to rest and get a coffee beverage to get myself rolling. it is good to have the effects of my double vax removed from my life and i feel healthy and focused, in the here and now. it is a great day to be on this side of the lawn and in recovery.

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