ยฟ i have to practice honesty, humility, compassion, tolerance, and patience ?
Posted: Tue, Oct 25, 2011 07:29:19 AM
with everyone, whether i like them or not!as i sit here this morning, all of a sudden pressed for time, after cleaning up something i could have done yesterday, i am struck by how this reading fits in w8ith what i am beginning to see as the theme emerging from the information overload i am processing from the weekend. what i am hearing, is that as much as i want it to be all about me, there are ripples to everything i do, good, bad or indifferent, that effect many more than just me. i hate that whole butterfly effect bull crap, but sometimes it is pertinent. every action, no matter how small and insignificant it may seem to me, has consequences. every word i publish, can affect change in the world around me. and every time i CHOOSE to live in addiction, rather than in spiritual principles, the world is that much less healthy for all of those who happen to inhabit it at this time. DO NOT get me wrong, my actions are seldom as influencing as a hurricane, tornado or earthquake at least on a macro scale. they can however, be just as devastating to an individual on a micro scale, and the only foil i have, is the spiritual principles that i have been given by those who have walked this path before me.
thinking over the weekend, there is one person, who was not quite ready to get the reception they got from me. my actions were part of my 10th step and i have tried to admit my wrong there. the simple fact is, that no longer will i drop everything i happen to be doing, when they suddenly appear. that is do foreign to me, especially in the history of this relationship, that i see myself starting to get a grip om what is healthy and what is not. what i did was correct, how i did it was not, and that is where the lesson in that particular encounter has to be focused. otherwise, i will be going back down a path that has led me to pain and misery in the past. i understand how insane that could be and i am not willing to go back there.
the clock however marches on, and i have places to be, code to fix and a concept or two to demonstrate today, it is a GREAT day to be clean, and just for today, i will do my best to carry these principles out into all my affairs.
thinking over the weekend, there is one person, who was not quite ready to get the reception they got from me. my actions were part of my 10th step and i have tried to admit my wrong there. the simple fact is, that no longer will i drop everything i happen to be doing, when they suddenly appear. that is do foreign to me, especially in the history of this relationship, that i see myself starting to get a grip om what is healthy and what is not. what i did was correct, how i did it was not, and that is where the lesson in that particular encounter has to be focused. otherwise, i will be going back down a path that has led me to pain and misery in the past. i understand how insane that could be and i am not willing to go back there.
the clock however marches on, and i have places to be, code to fix and a concept or two to demonstrate today, it is a GREAT day to be clean, and just for today, i will do my best to carry these principles out into all my affairs.
∞ DT ∞