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i long for the warmth and companionship intimacy brings, but those things do not come without effort. okay my second attempt at this exercise this morning, so i will take it that i was going down the wrong trail before and take a different tack this time.
i do desire the kind of relationships that the reading speaks about, however, there is a part of me that resists doing the work necessary to achieve this. that is the part of me that i more concerned about how i look, spiritually, physically, mentally and emotionally. doing the work to allow my true self to be seen is at times at cross purposes with that part of me that wants to appear to be better than i really am. well this last step cycle has brought me to a point where i want to be genuine. being genuine means allowing my true self to show and allowing my true self to show, makes me desire to let go of the part of me that wants to just look good, no matter the cost.
so off to play fireman, perhaps there will be more to write later.

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