ยท i am doing great in recovery, am i not? ยท
Posted: Tue, Jan 5, 2010 08:42:22 AM
but if things are falling to pieces at home, i am not doing so great after all. if i ignore the needs and desires of the woman i wish to spend my life with, i am not **practicing these principles in all my affairs.**
this morning, i am thinking about what is happening in my life and this is quite a wake-up call. i am on the verge of taking a service commitment for the next 10 months that will certainly take me away from home more often than i am right now. i have an anniversary coming up that will mark seven years since i first started the relationship with the woman i love. i am learning to within my means and clean-up some messes i have made in the past. so as i put all of this into the hopper and ponder about what is going on within me, within my home and within the relationships i have developed, i can see that unless i come back to the here and now, unless i work my recovery program at home, i will lose all of that which is precious to me. so the reading is particularly apt this morning, as a place to restart and refocus on my recovery and how to bring it into my personal life and the lives of those whom i love again.
it is interesting that i am sitting here, on the day i am planning to call my sponsor about moving into my next set of steps. by sitting here, i mean in this spiritual place, not in front of the computer that provides my livelihood. from this particular vantage point, i can clearly see, that i NEED to pay more attention to the home front and less attention to service to the fellowship. i feel disconnected from my life and from those whom i love. the irony is, that until i started pondering this particular passage i was oblivious to that fact.
so it is time to hit the streets, get into town for some errands and then get some work done BUT i need to be present for what is going on, in the here and now at home as well.
this morning, i am thinking about what is happening in my life and this is quite a wake-up call. i am on the verge of taking a service commitment for the next 10 months that will certainly take me away from home more often than i am right now. i have an anniversary coming up that will mark seven years since i first started the relationship with the woman i love. i am learning to within my means and clean-up some messes i have made in the past. so as i put all of this into the hopper and ponder about what is going on within me, within my home and within the relationships i have developed, i can see that unless i come back to the here and now, unless i work my recovery program at home, i will lose all of that which is precious to me. so the reading is particularly apt this morning, as a place to restart and refocus on my recovery and how to bring it into my personal life and the lives of those whom i love again.
it is interesting that i am sitting here, on the day i am planning to call my sponsor about moving into my next set of steps. by sitting here, i mean in this spiritual place, not in front of the computer that provides my livelihood. from this particular vantage point, i can clearly see, that i NEED to pay more attention to the home front and less attention to service to the fellowship. i feel disconnected from my life and from those whom i love. the irony is, that until i started pondering this particular passage i was oblivious to that fact.
so it is time to hit the streets, get into town for some errands and then get some work done BUT i need to be present for what is going on, in the here and now at home as well.
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