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a theory, for me to recover, my spiritual life needs to be grounded in some sort of reality. i have more than one friend, who seem to live in the ether of conspiracy and innuendo. at times when i peek at the stuff they post or hear what comes from their mouth, i am truly amazed. when i look to the theories that i may or may not ascribe to, my first question is whether or not it is plausible based on the evidence presented. if it is plausible, does the evidence really support it, after all, when i hear hoof beats in Colorado, i usually do not jump to the conclusion that there are zebras around me. no matter how loud i scream and attempt to bury the verifiable evidence under a pile of 💩, the facts are unchanged and in the end, usually the simplest explanation is closest to the truth. what really amazes me though, is even when the evidence has been in plain sight for years on end, suddenly there is some sort of cover-up to hide the facts in plain view. as one might be able to tell, i really have little patience for those who see demons lurking being every corner. i do not have to believe in science, it works whether or not i believe and the evidence i have are my feet are firmly planted to the ground.
which of course brings me around to the notion that my spiritual life and how i apply it to my day-to-day living, is more than just a theory. once i came to terms with the fact i am an addict, the insanity of my life in active addiction became clear. the “zebras” had changed to horses and i saw for the first time that everything i did, felt and thought was driven by self-interest, self-obsession and the desire to use. removing the desire to use from that equation, allowed me to find a manner of living where self-obsession and selfish self-interest could be reduced to more human levels. once i saw that then theory under which i had been laboring was a lie and was unsupported by any hard evidence, i was free to seek the truth and formulate a new working theory of life, the universe and everything. that theory, is still a work in progress and does not rely on the screams of anonymous users or number 45, to keep from imploding. that theory, how to live clean and apply the spiritual principles of this recovery program, has given me a life where i can care for my aging parents and not expect any return as i pay them back for all they have given me. that theory allows me to consider seriously what someone is trying to tell me and see the zebras when they are actually there. that theory is based on the spiritual principles i was given when i finally became a member and is being honed by my daily experience. it is a good day to be clean and a better day to let go of the notions that keep me from seeing what is real and the deep dark state of my imagination.

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