ยข taking my recovery home with me ยข
Posted: Thu, Jan 5, 2012 06:51:07 AM
as i pause this morning, to take a few minutes to write this, i realize, that for years, this reading was one i skipped because i really had no family to go home to. i read it when it came around, because that is what i do, but for the most part i just let it go in one ear and out the other.
today, even though i feel rushed to get back down to Denver for my full-time gig, and way overtired from working too many hours yesterday,l something struck a chord in me, that inspired writing more than the party line bumper stickers, that i often default to, when i feel like just phoning this in. the whole point, about not being home, is so obvious to me today, just because i am NEVER home these days. between work, meetings, sponsees and service, lately it feels like i am like a ghost when it comes to my home life, present just long enough so that everyone knows i am there and then i simply vanish in a puff of smoke.
there are a coup;le of solutions for this quandary, i can quit my job, stop going to meetings and fire all my sponsees, which as drastic as it sounds, is quite enticing to me on mornings like this. i could then spend all my time at home, until of course the money ran out. what i choose to do today is to be grateful for what i have. yes my life is full right now, and there are some things that are demanding ever greater attention everyday. yes, i am grateful for my life today, as full and hectic as it seems, i can give thanks to the program that brought me to this place, whining about a way too full life, and to the POWER that fuels my recovery, for giving me what i need to live today. the precious little time i have at home with my honey? well i NEED to be present for her and her needs. paying attention to express mine as well.
YOU KNOW, PRACTICE THESE PRINCIPLES IN ALL OF MY AFFAIRS!
so off to the showers and down to Denver for another LONG day of wpoork. it is a good day to be clean and to be able to have a home to complain about not being in. i DO see the irony here.
today, even though i feel rushed to get back down to Denver for my full-time gig, and way overtired from working too many hours yesterday,l something struck a chord in me, that inspired writing more than the party line bumper stickers, that i often default to, when i feel like just phoning this in. the whole point, about not being home, is so obvious to me today, just because i am NEVER home these days. between work, meetings, sponsees and service, lately it feels like i am like a ghost when it comes to my home life, present just long enough so that everyone knows i am there and then i simply vanish in a puff of smoke.
there are a coup;le of solutions for this quandary, i can quit my job, stop going to meetings and fire all my sponsees, which as drastic as it sounds, is quite enticing to me on mornings like this. i could then spend all my time at home, until of course the money ran out. what i choose to do today is to be grateful for what i have. yes my life is full right now, and there are some things that are demanding ever greater attention everyday. yes, i am grateful for my life today, as full and hectic as it seems, i can give thanks to the program that brought me to this place, whining about a way too full life, and to the POWER that fuels my recovery, for giving me what i need to live today. the precious little time i have at home with my honey? well i NEED to be present for her and her needs. paying attention to express mine as well.
YOU KNOW, PRACTICE THESE PRINCIPLES IN ALL OF MY AFFAIRS!
so off to the showers and down to Denver for another LONG day of wpoork. it is a good day to be clean and to be able to have a home to complain about not being in. i DO see the irony here.
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