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ok, i not only have to carry my recovery into the rooms, at service meetings, while working with others but also into my home? HMMMMM, what a freakin' concept. i have always suspected that there would be a catch to this whole recovery gig and here it is.
actually this is not such a novel idea, time and experience have shown me that even though the members of my household may not need or have a program of recovery, that does not excuse me from practicing what i have learned in the rooms in my daily life, including in my home. the tricky part for me, is all the baggage i also carry. most of my relationships within my household were formed and shaped while i was in the grip of active addiction. for me, it is quite easy to slip back into the unhealthy behaviors that characterized my life before. it is also easier to get angry, abusive, and intolerant instead of accepting the members of my household for the people they are today, focusing in on the painful past. life and recovery present challenges on a daily basis, and among the greatest challenge for me is to discard the past and be present not only in the outside world but in my home too.
that being said, i also understand that i can change and grow and over time carrying these principles into my home will become second nature. this does not excuse my less than stellar behaviors today, i still have to do my best to PRACTICE THESE PRINCIPLES IN ALL OF MY AFFAIRS!
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