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instead of distraction certainly seems like a doable task. i am, however one that seeks to distract himself from all sorts of stuff. okay, that may sound as if i am practicing a bit of false humility, BUT, the fact is, no matter how ell i do with being connected, i am still quiet capable of finding the ways and means to distract myself, especially whwen i am at the rec center doing the needful. i watch those around me, wondering why they cannot follow the rules or what they think they are doing, as they never seem to sweat. what i am attempting to do, is to beat my boredom when i climbing that imaginary Kilimanjaro, or peddling my ass off to Los Angeles. well, that, and polishing up a bit of the judge, jury and executioner, who do not get a whole lot of exercise these days, as i have decided i am better than condemning myself to a hell of my own making.
when it comes to my behavior in meetings, i have mostly put my phone down and i am mostly more concerned with what is being shared as opposed to how others are behaving. i say mostly, to cover my bases and to stay honest, as i am far from perfect and there are certain of my peers that i love to disparage because they just do not get it. i do not let myself go down the rabbit-hole of obsession about them, letting go and coming back into the here and now, attempting to pick up the thread of what is being shared. most of the time these days, that works, when it does not? well then i have lost something valuable that i will never get back, the experience of hearing what one of my peers had to say.
when it comes to my daily connection with the POWER that fuels my recovery, i am much better about allowing the random brain waves to rise and dissipate without any effort on my part. it is true, that i may noodle around with one of those ideas for a quick second, but i know that if i want to get the most out of my daily ELEVENTH STEP meditation i have to allow myself the freedom to allow the distractions to come and go. again, some days are better than others, but those better days come more often than they used to and for that i am grateful that i continued to practice this, until it started to become second nature to me.
in the right now, i need to get some warm clothes on and take the dawg out for her daily constitutional. i need the steps to unwind some of the tightness i have from 100 flights of stairs in the gym today, and a few thousand steps around the 'hood will do the trick. it is a good day to remember that i can allow myself to be distracted or connected. i DO have a choice in that matter. i will see what comes of being okay with what comes barreling down the pike at me, just for today.

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